I don't know what caused it, but recently I've been feeling great disdain and disgust with a lot of people. I've been looking down on people a lot.. even though it says in the bible not to have lofty eyes, I couldn't help it.. I just can't stand incompetence, weakness and ******ity, and even though I knew it was wrong, I allowed my self to look down on others.
Something happened today where I was trying to gain favor with an influential person, and everything just went wrong. I said all the wrong things, I made all the wrong decisions and I felt like they had no respect for me, and I gained nothing.
It's been eating at me all day.. I had a chance for a lot of gain, and this person who I needed to like me... I felt like was disgusted at me and had no respect for me. I've felt terrible and going through the events of the day over and over in my mind, asking why, it had to go down like that...
It's only now that I made the connection. I remembered how strongly I've been looking down on others, and now someone was strongly looking down on me.
Karma hit me like a ton of bricks, right on schedule. As always.
These type of things always happen, where it's like someone is narrating and directing everything going on in your life.
In a world of chaos and meaninglessness, these types of revelatory occurrences just wouldn't occur. Based on everything that's happened in my life... the structure and perfect impact of all the events that have gone down in the way they have gone down, and the way things have been revealed to me... God is as real to me as the sun in the sky. He has been with me my entire life. Speaking to me, guiding me, directing me in ways only I could understand, in ways that are completely undeniable.
Something happened today where I was trying to gain favor with an influential person, and everything just went wrong. I said all the wrong things, I made all the wrong decisions and I felt like they had no respect for me, and I gained nothing.
It's been eating at me all day.. I had a chance for a lot of gain, and this person who I needed to like me... I felt like was disgusted at me and had no respect for me. I've felt terrible and going through the events of the day over and over in my mind, asking why, it had to go down like that...
It's only now that I made the connection. I remembered how strongly I've been looking down on others, and now someone was strongly looking down on me.
Karma hit me like a ton of bricks, right on schedule. As always.
These type of things always happen, where it's like someone is narrating and directing everything going on in your life.
In a world of chaos and meaninglessness, these types of revelatory occurrences just wouldn't occur. Based on everything that's happened in my life... the structure and perfect impact of all the events that have gone down in the way they have gone down, and the way things have been revealed to me... God is as real to me as the sun in the sky. He has been with me my entire life. Speaking to me, guiding me, directing me in ways only I could understand, in ways that are completely undeniable.
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